2011 The Lost Year

2011 wasn't the greatest year; my mind was messed up; I was having bad thoughts that I never had before, and thanks to my stupid; he messed up mind and my thoughts, and made me lose a year not being myself. He messed up on my medication; he had put me on a medication for 4-5 years and it started to affect how I think, and sleep. In the spring time; I was bombarded by wrong,scary thoughts that I couldn't sleep most of the night. It wasn't until May that I found out that my medication was too high so he lowered it; when he did; it caused more confusion for the first week or so but my mind started getting a little bit better. I had to change my medication 3 times this year; and I had to take  blood tests 3 times. Now, my thoughts are starting to change and most of the wrong bad thoughts have disappeared. I feel that I missed most of this year where I could have enjoyed 2011 better if it wasn't for the damn doctor. In spring time; some of the time I stayed in bed for the whole day because my thoughts were tormenting; I  felt that I was in my own hell. hopefully; my thoughts will be completely gone, and I'll be myself again.

I know some people believed that the world is going to end in 2012; but I don't believe it. I've heard few times, and never happened. Nobody knows when the world is going to end Except God. I"m sure he's laughing when people say when the world is going to end.