Crossing My Fingers

So the other guy didn't work. We started dating, but he didn't want anyone to know. I told him I didn't like that. I wanted people to know and stuff and for it to be real. But we barely even talked or did anything together. I tried to get him to go to the movies with me but he'd say he had plans or something.
So we broke up. It didn't work. After we broke up I started talking to "him" again, in other words the old guy. We were texting and he was being so sweet. I told him I missed him and he said he missed me too. Then I told him no matter what happened that I'd always care for him and he'd always be important to me. He said he felt the same. Then I started talking about my insecurities. He told me I was beautiful, he told me I had a great body. He said all these great things about me and made me really feel beautiful for once. <3
I asked him if he thinks all those great things about me why he left me. He said it was because he was having a hard time with family and stuff. So now I realize I miss him so much. I want him back in my life. I'll never stop loving him. And I realize now that the whole time I was dating "the new guy" I was thinking of the old one. Truth is this guy I've known for years is someone I love, and I plan on texting him and telling him that. And this time I want it to be serious. We have a formal dance coming up at our school. It's girls ask guys. I'm going to ask him to the dance. And I'm planning on asking him out soon too. He's the best thing I ever had.
Now the exciting part is at school a couple days ago we met up by the bathroom. He took me to a staircase, (where we used to do things together). Then we put down our stuff and he gave me a big hug. We sat there hugging for a minute or so. Then he turned me around and place his hands over my waist and I just layed there against him for a little. Then he turned me back around and we held hands. After that he went to get his stuff and I said "Wait, you forgot something." and I pulled him by his sweatshirt and pulled him toward me and kissed him. (: It was a good kiss. And after that I walked back to class smiling. I never felt happier.
So now I'm crossing my fingers and praying this guy feels the same about me and maybe we can start over and be together again. I miss him , I love him. I want him.. <333 Wish me luck, pray for me if you will.
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Jan 19, 2013