Im Really Hating My Life Right Now...... To Much Isshhhh Help!!!

So its like this i basically had everything made i had a job car and i still stay wuth my grandparents then i got into legal trouble now i have 10000 in resitution no job im not a felon btw im 22 and i basically put my fam in debt from my actions im on probation now and i feel like my world is crumbling my parents are essentially poor because of me now and i hate it christmas is coming around the cornor and i fukked everything up