I Did...

 i had this best friend in 4th grade named skylar...she was really my third friend in my life. i was super shy when i was younger...anyways..we really hit it off and played together a lot, one time she came over to my house and it was my mom's birthday and my brother was taking me to this store to buy my mom a gift and skylar came with us,well before we left i was getting money from my piggy bank to buy things for my mom and decided to give skylar a $40 to buy stuff too! she smiled so big i couldnt help it :] so anyways we go there and i got some stuff for my mom and skylar was nervous about using my money and im like its oK! and i helped her buy stuff :] like pointing to cute things and all... and we decided together what to get her.well anyways apparently my brother never knew i gave her money and only found out after skylar had left and we were about to go out for my moms birthday because i told him...ill never forget it...he told my mom and everyone was so upset with me...i remember my mom screaming at me...telling me i hope im happy that i just wasted my money like that...and how i shouldve asked first...she made me feel so guilty for giving skylar that money... i just wanted to make my best friend happy...i didnt understand why everyone was mad...it was my money anyways and i thought it a little amount of money compared to the smile it gave her...i thought a smile was worth more than $40...anyways i ended up feeling so guilty every time i saw her after that...that eventually i started avoiding her...i stopped talking to her...im such a horrible person... i want to say i was only 10 and i was confused but thats no excuse. i know. she looked so sad at school. and i all wanted to do was apologize...but i couldnt...i felt so ashamed every time i saw her, that i just avoided her.im a coward. and as a result i hurt someone who was really important to me. and i replaced her with another friend... 


im the worst.

kittycat101303 kittycat101303
18-21, F
Feb 20, 2010