Nothing To Do....

I don't even know anymore.... Outside I put on a smile and act like everything is fine. And sometimes I even believe everything is fine. But then I screw something else up and am reminded how incompetent and horrible I am. How I can't do things right. How I'm not normal or good. And it hurts inside. I've ruined everything. My counselor says I'm not trying hard enough and says "I don't know why you came back here." so I stopped going. I got a job and have already started to be made fun of for being a "Hebrew Mormon" and acting like I'm not allowed to do anything because of my religion. The adults in the house are mad at me and their kids. Says we never do our chores or complain and we were yelled at for it. I have been so busy at work that I don't do as many chores as I used to but I do try my best to keep up. But still I was yelled at and her voice was so full of hate almost. It really hurt to be spoken to because of that. I feel hopeless... Like a loser... Lazy... Incompetent... Not worthy anymore. Like I'm wrong. And it hurts...
Kaity5 Kaity5
18-21, F
1 Response Jun 8, 2012

hun, you are fine just the way you are...ur not those things...ur beautiful,smart,caring,and etc!! i love you for you!! and u dont ruined things cuz u still have me here when i was going to delete mmy profile :) love ya!

I'm glad you didn't delete your profile! And thank you for being there for me.