I Lost My Best Friend And My Lover To A Drunk Driver

It's been two weeks  now since I lost Simon to a drunk driver.  He was on his way to work, at 7 in the MORNING, and was hit head on by a drunk native playing "chicken" with him.  He was pronounced dead on the scene.

Simon was my boyfriend for 1.5 years, and I was sure we were going to get married.  When we were apart from eachother, he always would send me sweet text messages, and always one saying Bon Nuit! et Beau Reve!  (good night and sweet dreams).  I could talk to him about anything.  He took such good care of me.  One day he made a comment about adding air to his tires, and I commented that perhaps I should check my tires.  He said, "Don't worry Diana, I check your tires all the time.  I want to keep you safe."  We shared everything, the good and bad.  Laundry and cooking.  Cleaning and getting dirty.  I loved his family and he loved mine.  He was tall, and kind, and gentle, and protective and honest and hardworking.  he was perfect.

Now he is gone.  But dust.  Because some ******* thought it was funny to get in a car drunk and try to scare someone.  I just don't know what to do with myself.  Everyday I pray to die.  I think of ways to die so that people won't know I died intentionally.  I just can't bare to continue without him.  He was my rock and without him I have crumbled.  I just want to die so I can be with him.  How can I possibly ever love another man again?  The joys in life just arent worth the pain and sorrow.  I can't breathe.  I can't eat.  My heart is pounding.  My future is empty.

I am with his parents, and they too are in so much pain.  What if I were to have children and this happened?  I can't even think about it. 

dszabo dszabo
26-30
Feb 4, 2010