I Hurt Myself Today To See If I Still Feel.

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of ****
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
my sweetest friend
Everyone I know
goes away in the end
You could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way...

-----so, those are the lyrics of the song "Hurt" by Nine Inch Nails, which Johnny Cash covered.  
Cash's version is nice, but I prefer Trent Reznor (of N.I.N.)'s original version much more than Cash's. 
I used to listen to it on repeat a lot when I was a teenager.  I found it easy to cry too.  Being a depressed teenager is dark territory.  Remember when you were a depressed teen?  Suicidal and moody and cutty?  Wasn't it fun?
Thank you Nine Inch Nails for making my dark moods beautifully darker.  I love you.   ;-)
Mistake Mistake
26-30, M
Jul 12, 2010