I Hurt Myself Every Day....

When I was young something bad happened to me. I got hurt.

To this day I abuse myself. Sexually....

I feel like I deserve it. I am afraid to get a pelvic exam because of the abuse I give myself. I've been through the mental health system time and time again. I want to stop hurting myself, but I don't know how. I'm afraid that they'll do something drastic because I hurt myself sexually. I used to cut. I stopped.

I don't know what I'm doing... I don't know. I am so scared...

absolutionist absolutionist
22-25, F
1 Response Aug 9, 2010

Your worth so much more then that.. you may not see it right now..or tomarrow or the next day..but one day you should reach out to someone you trust to help. To the person who hurt you when you were little..dont let them keep hurting you...and each time you hurt yourself over and over again your giving them more of you.. as if what they did didnt take enough of you forever..they are still eating you alive to this day.. Im sorry you went through this.. and **** you to the person who causes you so much pain day in and day out i hope they get what they desereve one day.