Swallowing Razor Blades.

Ok. I dont physically swallow them, its a metaphor of the pain I feel. I'm companionless (long story, explained in a few other stories) and it hurts more and more daily. Couples are everywhere. And lately, whenever I see/hear the words :Marriage, boyfriend, girlfriend, fiance, husband, wife. It hurts a little more. So many people tell me I wont end up alone. I try as hard as I can to believe them, but it just hurts too much..
DGSteele DGSteele
26-30, M
1 Response May 24, 2012

I know how you feel. My fear of staying alone (because of my weight and my looks and all that) has made me stay with my boyfriend for 8 years now. but even then, I feel alone. He won't stop ditching me to play Magic and D&D and stuff. He is really a good guy, but I feel always second. I sometimes think that maybe we should break up, but then I am panicked at the idea of being alone. I'm still not sure if I love him or if I hang on to him because I think that without him I will be forever alone! You can PM me if you need to talk. So, believe me, sometime it's better to be alone-alone than to be together-alone!