No One Really Knows

I am known for my depressions and my tendency to pull away from people when I feel sad. My formerly-close friends all know that about me, and most of them have now stopped trying to get close to me. Most have actually just given me up. That's fine. I can't expect anything else.

But I keep them at a distance for a reason. All the pain inside me would swallow them up. It chokes me. There are days when I am afraid to even open my mouth, because that choking crying feeling is always back there, threatening to betray the happy face I wear.
SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
36-40, F
1 Response Sep 10, 2012

I will not back away. I understand, I've been in that dark place myself