If You Really Knew Me, Then You Would Know. .

If you really knew me, then you would know that i have trust issues.
If you really knew me, then you would know, i don't know my father.
If you really knew me, then you would know, my real father left before i turned a year old, and i haven't heard from him, even though he lives 30 minutes from me. If you really knew me then you would know that i long for him, i want him to write, call even e-mail me. After 16 years most would be mad, upset, hateing him, yet there i was my sweet 16 birthday bash and the one thing i wished for was for my dad to come walking through the doors or to even call me and say i've missed you and im sorry. I just want to know that he knows i here, that i exsist. If you really knew me then you would know i cry myself to sleep at night. If you really knew me then you would know that i don't talk about my feelings and i always seem to be happy and smiling around everyone. If you really knew me you would know my mom not just my mom, but my bestfriend, my mom and she fills the hole of my dad.
If you really knew me then you would know that i am not just a simple girl, but a complicated complex girl with a crazy life!
If you really knew me, then you would know i am madly in love with Luke since my 6th grade year, now in 11th grade my love for him is stronger than ever.And if you really knew me then you would know that i dont plan on marrying Luke, you would know that i WILL marry Luke.
If you really knew me then you wouldnt have to be reading this, you would already know.
BeahmsLittleSailorAngel BeahmsLittleSailorAngel
18-21, F
May 25, 2012