I Love Crossdressing
Hello... I’m Eileen Jeanne Edwards
First, let’s get some things straight, (of which I am) and I am not going to apologize for it, nor am I going to tell you what to do if either I, or this site will offend you .I am a heterosexual Fe-Male [though at times I do consider myself a lesbian, because I prefer being in the company with and do like and love women! So now you’ll ask, what is a Fe-Male? Hopefully, I have created these pages to share something I feel is very beautiful within me, and maybe help answer a few questions and to educate you and others by doing so.
Many people have the impression that crossdressing is just a sexual fetish of some sort. For me, that never has been the case. I will never try not to make judgments about others, their sexual preferences, Transvestites or drag queens, but I do wish it to be understood that not all of us are the same.
As in all things, each person is unique and are often at different points along the path of self discovery. For me, since I was born, crossdressing has always been and still is an ex
The photos that are linked to this page represent my best effort at outwardly expressing that identity, and at all times are meant to show the feminine image in a respectful and tasteful manner. Why? Because after spending much time and $$ with shrinks and doctors, I was diagnosed with a condition known as Gender Identity Disorder (GID) and Gender Dysphoria.
The for this condition is found in the DSM-IV, which is a big book containing descriptions of diagnoses used by therapists, psychiatrists, psychologists, and patients of these caregivers.
Having GID means that I am and will always be transsexual, a female, trapped in the body of a male. But this diagnosis, and these labels do work for me. (If they don't work for you, don't expect a big debate from this girl.)
There are some folks who had and will love engaging me in endless banter on this topic. If a debate is what you want, unless you are very open minded, and prepared to “walk a mile in my shoes!”
Briefly, my mom wanted me to be a girl when I was born for a very personal and private reason, and even though I was born a boy, she kept a dressed me as a girl for the first several years of my life. It wasn’t until I was the age of 12, I finally learned who and what I was, Transsexual, female, trapped in the body of a man, when in the spring of 1952 “George,” became “Christine Jorgenson.” The newspapers were filled with stories of the sexchange and when I had learned of the doctor, Harry Benjamin, his office here in New York City, I asked my mom to take me to him so he could make me a girl too. “NO,” was her answer, that I was a boy, to stop dressing up in girls clothes.
There is much more of my earlier years that I rather not talk about because they were very frustrating and painful years of my life. Fortunately, when I learned to play piano and several musical instruments, I was able to create a world for Eileen as a female impressionist. This all came about when I was asked to take a girl I knew to her prom and several of us went to the 82 Club, NYC, where the girls were the boys and the boys were girls.
It was that evening I made the decision to come out of the closet professionally after going to see several shows at the Club. I asked for an audition, was hired doing shows on a partime basis, when I wasn’t doing gigs with my own Band. I had so much fun as an entertainer and just looked forward to dressing up.
Oh yes... “I Enjoy Being A Girl, “ became my opening song! However, the 82 Club eventually became a nightmare for me as I was constantly being hit on, mainly from men who assumed I was Gay because I wore a dress. I wanted no part of that scene because I was heterosexual, preferred being in the company with women. I just loved and enjoyed being a girl!" So, I began introducing Eileen Edwards with my orchestra doing a 30 minute show at many of the gigs I played for.
I've always enjoyed the same privileges girls enjoy, to wear anything, may it be a dress or pants! Girls do this, naturally cross-dress wearing boy’s or men's clothes. I love and enjoy options of what I want to wear when I want to feel soft and very feminine. However, acceptance of my feminine side is sometimes difficult for even friends to accept, to only think of me as a ******... which I am not, never was, and never will be.
When I become Eileen, I love the attention and compliments I receive wearing a pretty outfit may it be a skirt ,blouse or a dress. I love to wear stockings or pantyhose,loving the look and silky feeling of wearing nylons with feminine looking shoes, either heels or flats. Like I said earlier, I love to have the options, the best of both worlds just like women enjoy loving to wear figure shaping sexy tight jeans, dressy slacks,Tops, skirts & Blouses. For those who know who I really am, I ask you please..not to be judgemental of me. Every male has a feminine side as female have a masculine side.
Vicki Rene Said it best, "It is great to be passable but it is even greater to be accepted! You can only be accepted by being a good person and realize all around you are people that may like you, may hate you and some may even just not understand you. Don't run from any of these people, give them your best smile and look them in the eye and say hello. If you run, you will be running all your life."