Tough...

Seriously, i need to get this out some where...
but i don't know how...
with just words...or what
but im confusedd :((
like, how do i know if i am with the right guy? i mean yeah ok i love him yeah i do but sometimes i hate what he does...but still...how do i know im not with the not right guy...did that make sense? .
or how do i really honestly start looking in the mirror to tell my self i am beautiful when i have hurt so many people in my life? i wanna scream until i can't breath, i wanna cry until i can't see.
i don't get it. i am falling apart and no one around me notices..but i didn't even noticed until i started emailing a person.
is that what it takes? is for someone elses pain to hit you so hard that it knocks everything out of you until there is nothing left and you realize how bad of a person you are?....
and the worst part...i can't start over.
lovemealways lovemealways
18-21, F
Jan 22, 2013