Having An Affair With Someone Who Shows No Emotion Towards Me

Hello. I think I might feel better if I get this out. I have been having and affair with a married man. This affair has been going on for 5 months. He will never tell me he loves me or even that he has strong feelings for me. I have no idea why I am doing this to myself because most of the time he just makes me feel bad about myself. We have had sex 4 times since this affair started, each time we do have sex he seems to pull away A LOT which just ends up with me feeling worse than ever before. I just feel like I am at his beck and call. we talk a lot I guess on the net, but it's all by his rules. He will disappear for hours without saying a word, disappear at night without saying a word, ofcoures I am not allowed to do such a thing as he will get pissed at me. I really don't think I want this guy in my life but do not know how to let go! He chased me for so long, I kept turning him down but now I am involved with him it seems he has me right where he wants me.
afoth afoth
41-45, F
1 Response May 16, 2012

Yikes!!! RUN do not walk, but RUN away. Geez... You can do MUCH better than thus honey!!