I Am An Introvert......................

It wasn't until I divorced that I began the long journey of finding out who I am.

I tried for so many years to fit in and be the out going person everyone around me seemed to be. I never felt comfortable with this and I could never really work out what it was that made me feel this way. Later after having the time and space to collect my thoughts and to find myself, I realized I was trying hard to fit into a world that wasn't me.

Through the process of educating myself and researching everything that had to do with personalities and personality types, I found out I was an introvert. I'm not shy as I enjoy being with people and friends but only for short periods of time and generally one on one time. I always felt like the odd one out and was made to feel there was something wrong with me because I didn't socialize a lot, I had only a handful of very close friends and I like to spend my time being at home in my space. I need my space and my own time. I become quite drained if I don't get that time to recoup that energy...

I am a deep thinker. I wouldn't say I have high expectations but I find I don't have many people that I can talk with to share personal thoughts, that understands how I think and feel. I don't have many friends but the friends I do have I treasure. I am a very empathetic person and I care very deeply for people but I have found in the past I never got that understanding or time from others to listen to me - but I am always there for others. I seem to be able to understand all points of view without judgement - better than any psychologist ever has.

I lose interest in things very quickly. I don't know why. I take things on and never finish them. This includes business ideas. I don't lack the ability to start things but lose that motivation very quickly. I would like to find that person that is like me that could always be there like I could be for them and to have a reciprocated level of morals and values and awareness of understanding.

It seems to have become a very selfish world. People are only looking out for themselves. For the material things in life. People can be petty, argue over the silliest of things. I have never been able to understand why people just can't get along and lose the jealousy, the two faced attitudes, the winging, hide behind their false identities, not working together, doing what suits them without thinking of the other person, etc..etc.. Why can't people just be kind and thoughtful towards others.

I am very intuitive.... I have been told I have a gift to read, empathize and provide good advice. It can be lonely sometimes.

I never stop educating myself - I like to have awareness not for myself but also for others.

cazzajay cazzajay
Sep 17, 2012