I know I will find someone else but right now it hurts so badly. It's like my heart is sinking and actually when I woke up this morning and realized what I had done, I was crying in my pillow for a good hour. Really balling. It was pathetic.

I did it because I want to focus on school and cant afford drama in my life for the next 4 years. Engineering school is hard. I know I am doing the right thing to break up with her because she was also not compatible with me anyways but all the logic in the world wont stop my body from feeling how it feels. It will take time.

I keep getting the urge to call her. I keep picking up my phone and checking for missed calls or texts and there is nothing. I need to let her go. She's not the right one and she is not even the right one for me right now. I guess maybe it also has a lot to do with the fact that I feel scared to be single again after all this time we have been together. I remember I didn't like it. I feel so lonely now. I even made this EP account because of that.
sociableTim sociableTim
36-40, M
1 Response Aug 20, 2014

Later after I graduate and get in shape I am going to be a prize and I can give my all into a relationship...I just want this horrible heartbroken feeling to pass.