I ended everything last night, and I feel terrible. I know in the long run, this is what's best. I feel so terrible for breaking her heart, but I'm just not happy anymore. I am so ready for the immediate repercussions to be over with. I want to be able to come home to my apartment and sleep in my bed. It's my apartment, but i told her she could stay until she figures out her situation and what she wants to do. I feel like everything is so chaotic and all I want to do is sleep in my own bed. I can't process this all while im couch surfing, especially with her making suicide threats. I called her family, and they are coming to be with with her, but I just can't be there. When I see her crying, the guilt overwhelms me and it takes all I have not to give into her.
Ag0405 Ag0405
26-30, F
Aug 22, 2014