Feels Like A Dream
Whenever I think back to that summer, to the summer of firsts for me, it all feels like a dream. How could I, a naive 13 year old fall in love so quickly? Okay, maybe not love, but it was defiantly a strong connection. Even now, writing this, it's like I dreamed it all. I remember the day we met, Chris and I, it was on that stupid only role-playing game, RuneScape. Yeah, I was a computer geek back then. We hated each other at first, that's how it always starts huh? Defiantly weren't anywhere close to being friends. But then a mutual friend of ours stuck us working on something together and yeah, we got to know each other. It feels strange really, that my first boyfriend was an online boyfriend. Totally against each and every rule my parents told me. But I never even gave out my real name, so it's not like I was being stupid about it. One night I was sleeping over at my best friends house and she and I were talking. I had told her at some point that I thought chris, ya know, liked me. Well her and her big mouth decided to go and tell chris (she played RuneScape also). It was by far the best night of my life. He asked how sure I was, I said something like 90% and he told me to make that 100%. That's what started it all. We scheduled times that we'd be on, between him having football and me having soccer it was sort of hard, but we pulled it off. One night we pulled an all nighter. I kept trying to get him to go to bed since he had football early the next morning, but he said he'd rather talk to me. The next day he regretted that but still, it was sweet at the moment.
Looking back I sort of feel betrayed, played, whatever word there is out there to describe it. One day he was there, the next he got into an accident, and the next I don't hear from him. Our relationship had ended, as did the summer. Every time I look out my window and up to the sky, I wonder if it was real. If the whole time he was telling the truth, or if it was really some creepy 45 year old trying to rape me. I'll never find out the truth about that, but what I can say is that it was the best summer of my life. Whether it feels like a dream or not, I know it happened. I fell in love and got my heart broken all in the serious of two months. No matter what happens to me, or where I end up, I'll never be able to forget him or that summer.