I've Tried Not To

I've pushed it away for so long but I just couldn't resist any longer. I'm so stressed out and reaching for that blade is the only thing that made my brain stop. It was like water being poured over my head. I just felt it all through my body. It calms me down. It makes it stop. It makes me feel better. Kinda like a tranqualizer only this is instantaneous. I didn't want to do it. But that first cut, it just proves how good it makes me feel.

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2 Responses Mar 5, 2010

i know what you're talking about

It's the same way for me, its like once i first cut, I'm happier. I'm not as angry anymore, I'm calmer than i used to be. Life isn't as stressful as it used to be...