How Things Will Be

Life is not the same as it is for the average person. I have gotten by, but at a much slower pace than most people. I wonder if people will ever accept me for who I am and know I am not the same; if ever I will be believed with all I have been through (people can assume I am a player). I want and try to be more social, but always end up right back where I started for one reason or another.
asert12345678 asert12345678
31-35, M
3 Responses Dec 11, 2012

I know what you mean bro! :( I find myself in that very same boat! :(

I asked myself that question for a long time: will others ever accept me for who I am. Now I say to myself, I know darn well that a lot of people out there won't accept me for who I am but that's OK. I don't want anything to do with people who don't get me anyway.

Why do you want to be more social? I myself tried that for years until I realized that I was trying to be someone I wasn't. I remember I used to sit at home pouting if I didn't have any social activity to participate in. I would berate myself for not trying to get out there more.

As for all you have been through: I myself have been through my share and have learned to look at every bad thing that has happened to me and figure out how it has benefited me today. I have grown from the tragedies I went through and I no longer feel self-pity about it. It will always be a part of me, but I would rather glean the positive out of it rather than dwell on the negative.

You sound lonely, self-defeated and frustrated. Try getting to know yourself. It's easier for others to accept you when you accept yourself.

People accept you or have to continue living. Do not give up!