Is There a Point to It All

I'm 37 years old and all my life I have been hurt, disappointed and kicked when I am down.  Now tell me what is the point in falling in love?
Is there a point to it?
I've even started to ask myself "What exactly is Love?
I always thought that Love was that feeling deep down inside your soul that tells you, that you have feelings for another person, but I'm beginning to think that, that feeling is just a warning, telling you to wake up and run for the hills!!
I've done a lot of stupid things in my life, the biggest one that I ever did was have my boyfriends name tattooed on my arm, what a killer that was!!
Now I find a great guy who I thought would love and cherish me for .. Well at least a little while?
But Oh No!!
How wrong was I?
U have one bad day and feel like crap and he deserts you, not only does he desert you, but along with it he takes the last shred of decency that you had left for yourself?

Now U tell me what is the point in living like this?

I've often cut my arms, but never wanted to die, but things are changing so fast that if I blinked I would miss a whole section of my life that maybe I should have been co-hearent for?

Things just go from bad to worse.
I've now even got an ex boyfriend who I dumped for being an alcoholic who thinks it's okay to tell the world and it's brother everything that goes on in my house, I don't even have a private life any more it seems, every one knows who I am going out with on the first day/night that they spend with me.

Its getting beyond a joke!!

So now I ask the question again

Is there a point in falling in Love?
Is there a point in living when all you feel is down?

Elvira1969 Elvira1969
36-40, F
1 Response Apr 13, 2007

You just haven't fallen for the right one yet. I am also 37 yrs old and still single. I just got out of a relationship. I have decided to take a break from dating. Its actually nice to not have to worry about a man for a change. Don't get me wrong I don't want to be alone forever but I am enjoying the break. My ex really hurt my self esteem so I am trying to learn to love myself again.