M y fiancee of 4 years (would have been officially 4 years on September 30th) left me, it'll be 4 weeks ago this Monday. She said I wasn't making her happy.
The day she dumped me, August 18th, she sent me an email and called me and told me to read it, and not call her until I read it, I already had my email open, so I started reading it and immediately started crying. I actually had to leave, right then, for a dentist appointment, and so I didn't read it until I came back 2 hours later. I cried and cried, I have been since then, I tried to call her like she told me to, but she didn't answer until the night after. She told me on the phone that I hadn't been making her happy for the last year and half. We went to high school together, and now we go to the same college . A few days later I came over to get my things, and I asked her little brother if he wanted to hang out for the day, and when I came back to drop him off, there was another guy in her bed, my bed. It came out that she has been talking to him online for 2 months, and that she had met him at work. I actually came to this website and read that she joined the experience "I have met a man that makes me happy" the day we broke up. The week after she dumped me, she spent the weekend with him in Maine. Apparently, they've been going to dinner for weeks and she never told me, she's never wanted to go on trips with me and barely went out to dinner with me. She said on the phone that it was none of my business, since I was no longer with her - so she didn't need to tell me anything. But, I said, she never told me anything for the 2 months they had been talking online.
We still are carpooling into and out of school still, this guy, Steve also goes to our college. It makes me sad because this guy is kind of chubby, has no muscle definition, and all round not very good looking. I already have an extremely low self image, and now I know that I must be uglier than this guy. I'm 21, she's 19, I thought she needed someone younger, a few of my friends - and I don't have many - said she may have wanted someone closer to her age. It turns out Steve is 31 and turned 31 the weekend they spend in Maine this depresses me even more. I spend a lot of time with her still. But I know she doesn't really like it, even if she says she does it's only because I'm... so close to the edge, and her and I know the only thing keeping me alive is the thought that she loves me - even if it's not in the same way I love her. I ask her if I'm good looking, but I know that I can't be.