Frustrated And Second Thoughts
I've never wrote in any kind of forum before and did a wild card search today. I was reading some of the others and a couple especially hit home. I am 8 weeks post op from rotator cuff, I had a full thickness tear which had fully torn away from my bone, bone spur, and I guess the worst part was I let it go over a year and had a pretty extensive frozen shoulder. I guess I just wasn't prepared for the length of recovery that this is taking. I just a couple days a go got out of the monster sling :). I really want so much to be myself again. I'm told that even now I can't even use that arm to so much as wash my hair, lift it, etc. for 6 more weeks. I have been in PT since week 2 following surgery to keep it from freezing up again but I am only allowed to move it under supervision. Being a person that finds it hard to sit still this is making me question everything. I can relate to another member about losing their FMLA as mine ran out last week and I sit waiting everyday for my termination letter to come. I have learned also that you do not receive unemployment until you are released by your physician and he is telling me I am looking at a 4 more like 6 month rehabilitation. I am truly not wanting to come to anyone sounding like "Debbie Downer" or a whiner in anyway I am just so frustrated. Does anyone feel like I do? I ask myself was this worth it? Is the pain better....no. Maybe down the road I will be able to say yes. I do try and stay positive read, walk, etc. but I guess I just didn't realize that it would be like this. Sorry for the vent.