My Final Stand

My tooth hurts. A lot. It could be that I haven't stopped purging in the last 3 weeks. I want to say I can't help it, but I don't want to bullshit myself. I could help it if I really tried. Maybe if I tried harder than I am now. I'd have to chain myself to my bed, throw out all my money, and stay away from food. Who am I kidding? I've been trying for months. 

No more ******** myself. I'm making a pact  to stop. Right hand, you're getting written all over with a black sharpie. Hearts. A heart for every person that loves me. Because I'm too good for you to do this to me. And I'm carrying a sharpie around to write on you, right hand, every time you feel compelled to ruin my day. It's not going to happen anymore. I am better than this. I am better than you. I don't need you anymore.

sweetskinnytomato sweetskinnytomato
18-21, F
4 Responses Feb 18, 2010

Good for you :) I know what its like to purge. Doesn't feel good :( Just be strong. I haven't over come my eating disorder yet, but I know you can :)

You can do it! I am going throught the same feelings. We have each other!

I think you can do it!

Good for you!