Just Don't Know Where To Go From Here

People are going to think this sounds selfish, well at least I think it does. I have family, friends, and a loving boyfriend that all care about me so much. But all I can feel is sad; well not necessarily sadness but numb. I just don't seem to care about anything anymore. I am not wanting to die or anything which is everyone's concern but all I want is to not do this anymore. I want to be here to see my friends and family grow and succeed but I don't want to do that myself. It is so hard to explain.I have tried talking to someone, taking meds but i just don't want toanymore. I am tired of people saying I have depression. I am tired of people saying I don't understand because my depression is clouding my mind. I am tired of people saying its just the depression talking and its not how I would really feel if I was "better". I just want to be left alone.
banana0hammock banana0hammock
22-25, F
Dec 6, 2012