I Want My Husband To Just Love Me. Thats All. I Just Want His Love.
My husband was injured in Iraq a few years ago and a couple months after that we met and have been together ever since. It hasn't been easy though and I never expected it to be easy. Everyday I have to bring him to the hospital so he can get his pain medication. So everyday it is a 3 hour drive up and back plus whatever time it takes for him in the hospital. He also has to be on anti-anxiety medication because he has P.T.S.D. from everything he had to do overseas. I can't even begin to imagine what he had to go through over there, but I do my best to stand by him and give him all the love and patience he needs. His medicine does come in late sometimes and that's a real problem because when his anti-anxiety meds are late then he has seizures which are really scary, but not only that but he drinks more during that time too. He normally drinks everyday but then during these times he gets wasted and mean. I try to stay out of his way at that time until he falls asleep. Lately it's just been really rough today is mothers day and we were going to bring my mother out for dinner we had been planning this for awhile but 2 hours before he gets upset about something I am still not sure of what it is. But he became upset with me so when we went to dinner I just tried to stay quiet to whole time and not bring attention to myself, but when my parents would talk to me anyway he would start making untrue comments about me. Like when he was talking to the waitress after he told my parents I would yell at him later because for some reason he thinks that I think that he was flirting with her, but that thought NEVER crossed my mind and even if it did I would never yell at him. He is a grown man and he can flirt if he wants as long as he doesn't do more. For some reason he likes to say stuff like that about me when he's been drinking. I would support him through anything. I would never do anything to hurt him I love him so much. All I want is for him to love and respect me as much as I love and respect him. I don't know what to do anymore. I just stand by him no matter how much he hurts me and lies about me to my friends and family. I don't know why he finds the need to do this I would never lie like that about him. He's never has an easy life but ever since I met him I have been trying to make it a very wonderful place for him to make up for what he has been through. I just give him all the love I have because to me he is my soul-mate he can be wonderful and sweet sometimes that's why I don't give up on him. The other times when he's miserable I am miserable too but I just try to keep going on because I don't want to let him down and leave him and make him fee abandoned. I just don't know what to do, but I do what I can because I do love him. I just need help sometimes. I just want him to love me and respect me like I do him, because I love him very very much.