Could You Not Be Bloody Drunk For Five Minutes Mom?

Yes people i used the word Bloody. Im english, GET OVER IT.  :] JK. But now honestly. I want to scream at my mother. She is drunk 24 hours a day 7 days a week. I don't think i have a single memory of my mother ever being sober and when my dad died it got worse. Not that he wasn't just as bad. But really. My 14 YEAR OLD SISTER, Has had to move out , into my aunts house because she cant handle it. And our mother HAS NOT NOTICED IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM! The only reason i stay is because  im 17, And ill be going to college with My Gf next year. So what's the point in leaving. AND because im the only one who can make sure she doesn't get herself killed. 

Its like having a child i tell you. I have to hide Everything, hoping she wont break it. I even Put up the knifes, because one time she pulled one out on me. Im Losing my mind! 

You have no idea how badly i want to scream at the woman. 

AdamXX AdamXX
18-21, M
3 Responses Jul 15, 2010

Adam, I went through the same thing at your age. I spent 10 years in an alcoholic nightmare. My mother, father, and stepfather were all drunks or raging drunks.<br />
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No-one told me about Alanon. If I had known about it, I would have reached out to them. I urge you to find the local chapter and attend at least once to see what it is about. It is confidential, you don't have to say anything, and everything that is said is stricly confidential. You will meet alot of people with like experiences who can help you at this difficult time. You may feel you are doing okay, but you need to practice self-care and make sure you spend some energy on your health and well being.

Hi AdamXX,<br />
I'm so sorry you are deal with this. It is a horrible life to live. Although I didn't have a drunk mother or relative to live with, my mother was killed by a drunk driver when I was 4. The hurt never goes away, it just softens. Have you heard of Alcohol Anonoymous? Most cities, towns have one usually in the same building as AA's. Its for friends and family of an alcoholic. Your mother doesn't have to attend for you to attend. You may want to check it out in the phone book. I know the group was very helpful for me going through a similiar situation. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Feel free to email me anytime. Take gentle care of yourself.

That is such a difficult place to be...I'm the daughter of an recovering alcoholic. Similarily, I felt that it was soley up to me to take care of my mother (I was tweleve, she 46). Luckily she went into a recovery center as I went into high school. Today we have a close bond, because she actually listens now and I can treat her like...well, my mom. I want you to know that you are NOT alone. For piece of mind, you may want to try to help her to some sort of recovery center as you leave. But also important, stay close to your sister. Whether she shows it or not, she really needs you as her older brother to be there-and she'll respect you eminsely for it. And, for me, it really helped to get involved with a (youth group at) church. Knowing you really are not alone, having very supportive people around, and being able to form a relationship with Christ help more than anything. <Thats what probably kept me from going further in over my head, personally. Also, you can always write everything down (a journal, if you will, or secret letters), and no one has to ever read it. Plus, its just paper, plain ol' destructable paper. Try to find some outlet (art, music, writing, fitness, even school). I respect you for caring about your mom, even though you are so angry with her. I hope this helps at least a little will get better through time.