Right Now That Is Exactly What I Want To Do!

I so want to just let it rip!  I might want to hit something too!  LOL!

I am just dumbfounded by the actions of the person I am married to - see my blog entry for today if you are interested, otherwise, let's just have a good scream!


Nope, that doesn't do it for me!  
DorothyofOz DorothyofOz
41-45, F
8 Responses Jul 28, 2010

Well, I got my chance to scream tonight, of what I should say is, I SELFISHLY took my chance to scream tonight - and I scared my girls because I was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO mad at my husband and he was just not listening - and I just felt like I was going to explode - and I did - I am very disappointed in myself - and not only did I not get any relief from the screaming, but I feel WORSE! I think I should have gone out to some field and screamed and screamed and screamed 'til I had NO VOICE then I wouldn't be able to scream at home! To me, it is tragic that I can only get my husband to listen and hear me when I have a "temper tantrum" - I don't like them - I don't want to do it but I feel like I am losing my mind and I feel helpless and hopeless and defeated and frustrated - and I can't see anyway to improve my situation - so I stooped to a very immature level and let it rip - UGH!

I agree with wiseowl and Lily. Punching something helps. Maybe you could break something invaluable. Are there any hookah bars where you live? That's something wild and crazy to do. Or drive out into the country where no one else is, run around in circles in a field, and scream as loud as you can!

Right there with you sister! Let me scream with you! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH! Still doesn't quite do it for me - if I could REALLY scream - maybe - but then my children would be wondering if next my head was going to spin! LOL!

and confuse and demean and drive someone else crazy - hopefully himself - oops! He can't do that because I think he already IS!<br />
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Oh, I'm sorry - I digressed and now I bet I am not as emotionally mature as I "tested" yesterday - I can feel my "score" plummeting as I write.... whatever! I am now channeling the apathetic teenager - score is lowering at an alarming rate!

Well, that completely sucks - I am sorry to hear that (again? LOL!). If you lived closer, you could move in with me and pay rent and that would solve both of our problems - I could kick my husband out and he could afford to live somewhere else and you could afford to get out too! : ) Just fantasizing! *sigh*

Oh, yes, Destry - you can totally come!<br />
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So, do you want to scream for the same reason I do? I can't remember.... I can't remember much lately - I was up half the night thinking and silently crying (crap!) and trying to figure out a way out of this NOW - I can't take much more!

Oh, we could all use that! If I win the lottery - first on the agenda - DIVORCE but then I coming to get you and Lil and a few other women from here and we are going to some tropical paradise and letting go for a few days!!! It would be so better to SIGH than to SCREAM!

Beat the crap out of a pillow..It really feels fabulous :>)