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I Just Want to Scream

I Feel Like I Am Screaming Out Loud.....my Life Is Hell !

By: notvisable
Written on September 12th, 2011
Age: 36-40 , Female
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26 responses
  • greatsex

    Hugs for you today and prayers each and every day.

    Jul 20, 2012
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  • dzejsel

    everybody have their own problems..don't involve yourself



    dont be selfish owning all the problems ur environment has...

    Apr 23, 2012
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  • Greystreet0523

    My Mother passed at 92 a year ago, but she always told me in times or trouble "this too, will pass."

    Nov 17, 2011
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  • phendi

    Wow... I wish I can just hug U. I too am struggling w/ my church, but my faith will never waiver. I will say a prayer for you. Stay blessed.

    Nov 13, 2011
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  • thewayIam

    Oh dear! You are going through hard times. From your story, I can see, that you are strong person, and probably it is not the first time you go through rought times. My best wishes of luck to you. I wish that everything will be solved the way you wanted it to be.



    I would like to share some information with you, it might help. Fibro gets more agressive under stress, and it does not make situation easier. I have a girlfriend with fibro, we have tried a lot of different natural food sumplements to ease the pain and found one that helps: turmeric.



    Turmeric has many benefits, but one of them : It is a potent natural anti-inflammatory that works as well as many anti-inflammatory drugs but without the side effects, Is a natural painkiller and cox-2 inhibitor. You can read more on the internet. My friend was taking the maximum dose and she could feel results already after one week.



    Good luck!

    Nov 13, 2011
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  • notvisable

    I "lost" my house today.....I'm heart broken. My parents owned it & sold it today. I have lived here 12 years & there is so much Blood, sweat, tears,memories & money of mine here.....I'm just 'broken'.....:(

    Nov 9, 2011
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    • Gyummy

      I feel sad for you

      Nov 9, 2011
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    • thewayIam

      I am so sorry.

      Nov 13, 2011
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  • rickibrat2

    so sorry

    Nov 8, 2011
    2 likes
  • Gyummy

    One of my best friends on ep is in the exact same boat as you. She struggles with it everyday like you do. She is a very giving and caring person, much the way you sound. I hope you find peace and start feeling better.

    Nov 8, 2011
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  • misfit1955

    It is real simple dear, take baby steps, and finish thngs off in the smallest order until you get to the hardest one, and then clobbeer it, You will feel great. Hugs

    Nov 6, 2011
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  • sisu

    I know what church you're talking about. I left it too. It is easier if you are up front with the people that you aren't interested just don't tell them all the details (like their dogma is pretty much insane and no you won't give money to buy shopping malls). I'm sure the future is bright for a beautiful and intelligent woman like you. This too shall pass.................

    Nov 2, 2011
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  • gooncity

    i hope all goes well for you if you were near me i would let you take out some aggression out on me

    Oct 31, 2011
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  • OkCountryBoy

    I hope you come through all the stress and strain with your family intact and your health too..

    Oct 31, 2011
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  • BarryOne

    Oh! I forgot Scream loud and long! blow off steam;it helps!

    Oct 26, 2011
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  • BarryOne

    i'm going to pray for you! now ! just as soon as i share a little secret!



    It is the law of attraction: What we fear most is whats always on our mind and it attracts all the other things we fear! You have to find a way to create a very strong positive emotion. Love and sex being the easiest and fastest! That's my pennies worth!



    try put all the trouble aside! for a short period! With love

    Oct 26, 2011
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  • notvisable

    I cannot tell you enough how much ALL of your comments mean to me. I have very few (true) friends and I NEED to talk through things & TELL SOMEONE about the events that are stressing me out & making my life crazy ! Thanks for letting me VENT & "just say it OUT LOUD'......I know MANY people have 'baggage in their lives' & I FEEL for them.

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    Thank you ♥☆♥☆Thank you ♥☆♥☆Thank you ♥☆♥☆Thank you ♥☆♥☆Thank you ♥☆♥☆



    ♥Suzy ♥

    Oct 26, 2011
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  • justme1959

    I would love to be friends!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am the best listener u will find............and been thro a little hell myself...................pls add me?

    Oct 25, 2011
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  • Jspowerfulme

    So sorry to hear all of the stress. I wish there was something I could do. I can't stand to see a good looking woman with tears. If I wasn't broke myself I would do whatever was in my power. Best of wishes, and hang in there.

    Oct 25, 2011
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  • chantellette

    Darling I just wish I could breastfeed your hart and brain

    Oct 25, 2011
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  • justwannadoit

    wowwww

    Oct 23, 2011
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  • Maxnoir

    Suzy: You're doing some good things. - You've identified stuff in your past; in the list you shared here they are things that have negatively affected you. I encourage you (if you haven't already) to prepare a list of those things that you are thankful for, or that you are attracted to, or that inspire you. You get the idea. - You've rejected elements trying to make you somebody you don't want to be. You've rejected the social political views of your parents. You've rejected the controlling views of your former church. I'm going out on a limb that the current economic crises (there's more than one now) and the recent national health care debate as possible factors that may have partly influenced you. - I depart from a previous commenter. You may choose a church at some later time, but I don't think you need a "shepherd" at this time. You need support that may come from others in similar situations as you, or may be public types of support. With a 19 year old daughter your domestic situation, your family situation, is at a crossroads. It sounds like you are already evaluating your marriage (not that I'm encouraging this, but you're the one that knows your situation intimately).

    Anyways, don't count yourself out. Reflect on what you can learn from all that's happened... identify what you can influence, shake off and accept the rest, and forge your path to your future.

    More power to you. You sound like a strong woman and only getting stronger.

    Max

    Oct 23, 2011
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  • edge2010

    sorry to hear this. That's quite a list of health and stress issues to deal with. Hang in there!

    Oct 23, 2011
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  • EsmeAurora

    Oh, honey. I understand. :-(

    Oct 19, 2011
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  • Beanow

    Normally I always have something witty and often helpful to say to anyone.

    I really am not sure what I should tell you.



    So I'll make a wish for you.

    I sincerely hope that smiles will manage to find their way to your face and that you may find solace.



    Stranger or not,

    Warm hugs to you. <3

    Sep 12, 2011
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    • notvisable

      Thank you so much. I am grateful for your warm hug & your compassion. Thanks ! hugs,
      suzy

      Sep 13, 2011
      1 like