ConfusionHi everyone, my name is Lynn. I'm not exactly sure what I'm doing here...all I know is that I need someone to talk to without being judged.
Okay, so I was raised a devout Christian. I kept a close walk with God my entire life until around the age of 15 when I met a stupid boy and got involved in some "stupid sin." He's out of my life now, and always will be. That's behind me though, and it doesn't bother me. What does bother me was that after this experience, I began to drift away from God, and, by the age of 17, I considered myself an atheist. I know, big drop right? Well, fast forward a few years, and now I consider myself an agnostic. I want to believe in God, but I'm just not quite there yet. Now, on to what is really eating my heart out... I recently read a book about a man who, in his twenties, discovered himself to be bisexual. Now, it's all I can think about. I've never really had feelings towards girls in that way before, but the idea of being with a girl doesn't disgust me like I think it should. I'm really freaking out. Am I bi? I don't want to be. But I can't get it out of my head. It's ******* torturing me; I'm going crazy.
ImAMess2012 18-21 6 Responses 1 Apr 5, 2012