How My Life Turned Out..

Hi, I'm Destiney. I'm 14 years old and have been suffering from depression, anxiety and insomnia for most of my life. It all started when I was 4 years old, and my dad was arrested for making meth and other drugs in my family's garage. after that, I didn't sleep much or eat very often, and as i got older more things seemed to happen. I was molested by my grandfather when i was 5 and it went on until i was 12 when he was diagnosed with cancer and later died. In school, people would make fun of me and call me names, I've heard enough names and began to think it was all true. when I was 12, i started cutting. I closed myself off from other people and fell into a deep depression. I barely talk to anyone and only have 1 true friend, the only person I can actually trust.Because of everything, I was forced to mature quicker then most 13-14 year olds, which causes me to not enjoy things as much as other kids do. I'm just looking for someone to talk to. Someone who will just listen and give me advice, someone who will just help, Thats all I'm asking for.
jstneed2tlk jstneed2tlk
13-15, F
2 Responses Dec 2, 2012

Trust me you are not the only one in the world been through such experience. There are people who live in much more agony compare to you. Life is unfair and painful and selfish. Those who are positive gets on, else they're done.

I am in midst of nowhere feeling lost and depress. I have my agony and pain that are very much similar to yours. My stage, I prefer to be alone or I am alone althou it is really lonely or sad to be in my shoe, I guess life is just made and planned this way to live.

I will just share something with you that I am 100% sure of. GOD lives.. Jesus lives... and I just don't know what I am suppose to get on and off with my life.

Hopefully you will find peace with God despite all the painful experience. God bless.

My message box is open if you ever feel the desire. I'm not sure what advice I can give aside from what I've experienced, but I can always listen.