Alone At Home

My and My Girlfriend are taking a brake from our relationship. i did not know how much i miss her. the apartment is just so big and empty. i just want to have someone i can talk to, i miss being able to just roll over and cuddle when i was unable to sleep. we plan on getting back together but we want to restart our relationship so we can put the bad times behind us. i resently went to the hospital because the pills my doctor gave me for my depression made me try and kill myself. I am no longer taking the pills and i feel like my old self again but i did and said some terrible things to her. I do truly love her with all my heart and i know this will take time for her to be able to trust me again and see me as someone to love and not fear but i'm having trubble living on my own. she has moved in with some friends and i'm happy she is able to unwind and destress i just need someone i can hug and will tell me everything will be ok.