I Just Want to Talk to Someone
Well, ever since I was a kid, I was bullied pretty badly and it didn't matter what any adults did because I was still hurt. Eventually, I closed my heart to everyone around me, including my family who did nothing to help me and I trusted no one. And this was when I was in preschool. I remember the feeling all too well over being hurt and losing hope in life.
It wasn't until my 4th grade year that I met this girl. Literally glowing, she would talk to me and always try to make me laugh. The other kids in my class would tell her that she shouldn't talk to me and that I was only bad luck, a ***** and other names. I didn't care though, because I was pretty dead on the inside. The interesting thing though is that the day she opened my heart was the day she saved me from committing suicide.
She was my light, my first friend, my best friend, and my sister-like friend. She meant more than my real family and anything else in the world. However, that happiness didn't last forever. On August 17, almost at the start of my 7th grade year, she was murdered right before my eyes by her brother. I'll never forget that day when she was lying on the hospital bed while holding my hand and saying,
"Beautiful girl, don't cry. It's not the end of our friendship and it never will be. No matter what anyone tells you, just smile. Because your smile is like magic and it will create warmth and give others happiness, just the kind of happiness you experienced when we met.
I never want you to forget the happiness we had, and if you loose it, never stop until you find it, ok? That was my dream and wish for you, I wanted you to be happy. I wanted to see you find the happiness with your whole heart instead of pretending to be happy. I wanted you to live again. That's all I wanted because I love you."
She took her last breath in this life and past away right before my eyes. Since then, I've been trying to find the happiness she spoke of, and I still can't find it. My parents and people around me always bring me down and never support me. I'm scared of being told I'm not wanted and left alone again. I want to stop waking up everyday, knowing that I'm running away from my fears. I just wanted a little bit of courage to stop running. I just want someone I can trust and talk to, like that girl, the girl who changed my life and made my heart start beating again.
It wasn't until my 4th grade year that I met this girl. Literally glowing, she would talk to me and always try to make me laugh. The other kids in my class would tell her that she shouldn't talk to me and that I was only bad luck, a ***** and other names. I didn't care though, because I was pretty dead on the inside. The interesting thing though is that the day she opened my heart was the day she saved me from committing suicide.
She was my light, my first friend, my best friend, and my sister-like friend. She meant more than my real family and anything else in the world. However, that happiness didn't last forever. On August 17, almost at the start of my 7th grade year, she was murdered right before my eyes by her brother. I'll never forget that day when she was lying on the hospital bed while holding my hand and saying,
"Beautiful girl, don't cry. It's not the end of our friendship and it never will be. No matter what anyone tells you, just smile. Because your smile is like magic and it will create warmth and give others happiness, just the kind of happiness you experienced when we met.
I never want you to forget the happiness we had, and if you loose it, never stop until you find it, ok? That was my dream and wish for you, I wanted you to be happy. I wanted to see you find the happiness with your whole heart instead of pretending to be happy. I wanted you to live again. That's all I wanted because I love you."
She took her last breath in this life and past away right before my eyes. Since then, I've been trying to find the happiness she spoke of, and I still can't find it. My parents and people around me always bring me down and never support me. I'm scared of being told I'm not wanted and left alone again. I want to stop waking up everyday, knowing that I'm running away from my fears. I just wanted a little bit of courage to stop running. I just want someone I can trust and talk to, like that girl, the girl who changed my life and made my heart start beating again.
By:
Silverstar2424
Age:
16-17
,
Female
