I Never Show Emotions
I never show emotions. I'm an actress. In my personlife. I always act and it's just a part of who I am. I used to have a best friend (who was a guy) but things totally screwed up when his girlfriend found out that we hang out and she saw our text messages to eachother. Since she found out we haven't spoken to eachother for about 2 months and it's been hell cuz we're in the same class.
But last week we started texting again and she found out that too ... and now she calls me a ***** and says that I'm discusting, ***** and so on .. and says that she feels like throwing up every time she sees me so I should hid whenever I see her. (She goes to my school as well).
But I've been in a HUGE pain because of all this. But he dosen't now, no. Cuz I don't DARE to show my emotions, I can't bee seen as vunerable. Cuz then I fell so WEAK. Oh, this is just a bunch of rubbish really. I just like writing, takes my mind off things. KISS
But I'm afraid. I'm afraid right now, so afraid. It's like knifes stabbing my body when I see his eyes look at me and then look away, as if it burns seeing me. I hate this. OKEY. It's only 3 weeks 'til our Christmas-vaccation.