Don't Judge A Book By Its CoverI've kept a journal for many years. Sometimes I write in it every day but at certain times, months can pass before I make another entry.
Majority of my journal entries are done when I'm most upset or troubled about an event going on in my life. They are the thoughts & feelings that are true at that moment but they also contain my dreams, hopes, regrets, pain & fear. I usually wait until I've calmed enough to think clearly before writing anything down. Once I've cleared my head a bit, the words just flow from my head to my arm, only to pour out of the pen onto paper. Sometimes the entries are only a paragragh. Sometimes they're several pages. When I've written all I can, it feels as I've been mentally & emotionally cleansed.
Only my journal knows how unsatisfied I am with my relationships, myself & my life. How angry I am at myself for making the same mistakes throughout the course of my life because when the events are occurring - I know the choices aren't right for me but rather than do something about it, I continue on that path. Then I actually have the audacity to be upset about where I end up.
Taurian3 36-40, F 2 Responses 1 Mar 6, 2011