I keep a journal but it's not for me to remember my history, it's for my boyfriend. I haven't seen him in a very long time due that fact that he is in the navy and stationed in another state. I write to him every night and I tell him how much I miss and love him. I tell him about my day and what's truely on my mind. I tell him about my hopes and dreams for us and our future family. I hope to give it to him before he leaves for the middle east. I want him to remember that he has people waiting for him to come and that we all love him so very much. I hope that it will give him the will to keep pushing on. And the crazy thing is that he doesn't know anything about it.