It Means Nothing When Some One Reads It

I have been keeping a journal for years now!

Its pretty much my only way to put off doing something stupid to myself. I just put anyting down on the paper at the end of each day and only then can i sleep.

but when your mum reads it... It feels like I have had all my thoughts stolen from me and now they mean absolutally nothing. Im exposed and violted.

No one was supposed to read it unless i was dead... because I knew what i had written would hurt them so much =[

MissMadz MissMadz
18-21, F
2 Responses May 23, 2008

i am so sorry that happened to you. yes, it is violating. it feels like you've lost part of yourself. i hope you can get it back.

That must have hurt. I am lucky to have not ever been invaded like that from my parents. Of course, they didn't WANT to know what i was thinking, and that helped.<br />
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but when i met my husband, before i would marry him he had to read every one of my journals... it was a nerve wracking process, but somewhat freeing too.