My Life Story

I know you probably don't care, but I'm going to tell you my story anyways. I really need to tell someone this...

When I was young (elementary age) my mother overprotected me, but she also verbally abused me, making me feel very self-conscious, and very sensitive, so I cry easily. But I could understand my mother's dellima. She was very sickly from a carbon minoxide accident that killed her mother, father and older brother. I was her only child after 6 miscarriages, so I bet she wanted me to do my best, but it still was like she didn't love me.

4 years ago, she died of a perscription drug overdose.

And that's when I really started to grow up.

Sure, in 4 years I matured alittle, I stoped crying as much as I used to, annd I'm not TOO much of a brat anymore, and I made great friends because of it.

And then my dad remarried.

Only after a year after my mother's death.

I've never felt so betrayed in my LIFE.

In the 3 years they were married, I experianced the following things:

1. Why they call stepmothers 'wicked'
2. My best friend (ever) cutting herself and feeling suicidal
3. Me, falling into the pit of self-harm myself, scratching and picking my scabs so my scrapes won't heal.
4. Me facing bulemia
5. Me discovering the TRUE meaning of friendship
and
Finally realizing that my mother DID love me.

I still face challenges, like my self-harm and bulemia, but I joined this site. And I'm hoping it will help.

Little by little
unisondream unisondream
13-15, F
2 Responses Jul 16, 2012

You sure have high potential!
Remember Problems always comes like package.
You will get huge love that you missed in your past.

Seriously you are awesome..because you did 5 degree's and getting 3 doctrate's.

Tell your dad whats happening:(