Under Lock And Key

I hold so much stuff inside, mainly to protect myself from being hurt and because i am protecting the very ones that hurt me and have made my mind ''messy''. Sometimes i want to scream and shout and tell the world that i was the one that was the victim, but instead i let them believe i do certain things because i am selfish and just an all round not very nice person! ... But them people know what they done to me, they know why i have shut them down and out of my life.

I also hold my emotions in because i am simply too scared to share them, to show my vulnerability, my weaknesses. The one thing i long for in those moments though ... is a hug and someone to wipe away those tears that trickle down my crimson cheeks.

I sometimes hide behind my smile ... because that's where i feel safe! x
deadinsideout deadinsideout
31-35, F
1 Response Jul 5, 2013

Sigh ive found a quote that best describes my life... All to similar to yours... "I cannot express myself without burdening those around me"