Someone else in this group suggest I write on here.

Firstly I bottle up how I feel I don't like emotions good or bad. I failed to deal with them for most of my life that is one major reason I ended up 10 years ago an alcoholic. now I don't drink handling emotions and not going off and drinking or something else to change how I feel is the major challenge of my life. To sit and live in and with emotions is a battle for me.

Secondly over the years the futility of life gets me. why do we all do all this stuff about jobs money etc we spend so much we energy on it all. I worry if I ever really opened up about how I feel about that they'd lock me up or I'd feel like just not bothering any more
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1 Response Oct 29, 2014

I know how you feel....but that's how we get ulcers....