My Road Is Smoothing Out........very gradually, but some of the obstacles are falling by the wayside. I usually suffer in silence, but these improvements bear talking about.
1st obstacle: The need to have a man in my life to validate myself. This fell when I got unceremoniously dumped when my boyfriend took off with another guy. For a woman, this is an ego blow of immense proportions, yet after about a month I realized that I didn't miss him. I had enough stuff to do and didn't need to accomodate his schedule any longer.
2nd obstacle: This is in process of falling as I enter my final semester of studies for my bachelor's degree in History. Not having a degree when I was in my 20's got a lot of employment doors slammed in my face. Here's hoping a few new doors open so that I never need to face unemployment again. I want a career, not just a job, even at the advanced age of nearly 56.
3rd obstacle: Loss of hope....yeah, this one was a tough battle between feeling ugly, unloved, overweight etcetcetc....I am working on the weight and have regained the hope of better health. I realized that "unloved" in the romantic sense is not the same as unloved in the have-no-friends sense. "Ugly" is in the eye of the beholder and as my health improves I am becoming happier with my looks.
I realized this morning, that I am now looking forward to the second half of my life......
gillianmcg 56-60, F 2 Responses 0 Jul 16, 2010