Will This Stop?

I really feel sad in the morning because I realize, I was only dreaming. You see, my husband and I have been together for 4 years, we got married 6 months ago and have a beautiful three year old boy together. He has a 17 year old son from a prev. marriage, and I have a 13 year old son from a prev. marriage. The sparks were strong in the begining, I got pregnant two months into the relationship and three months after that he lost interest in sex with me. We have been intimate 3 times in three years. The last time being 1 year and 5 months ago. No, we have not consimated our marriage.

We are both attractive people, young and heathy. He is ten years my senior, but I have always been attracted to older men. It seems that when I started showing the sex appeal he had for me was replaced with I'm the one carrrying his child. That never changed. I had a c-section, so there was no reason for him to be afraid of my vagina. Anyway, I know he is not having an affair, he doesn't even look at ****....I would kill him if he did.

So the problem is now that I keep dreaming of other men, and I don't wast to wake up because these men make me feel so great. I feel a loss when I realize these are only figments of my imagination. I need to feel that lust again.

alymae alymae
31-35, F
Feb 13, 2009