Why?

No one knows I'm on here. I've told one other person about this site....and I didn't even tell her the name. Why?!

I don't even know how I found this place. I really don't....but that's a happy coincidence to be explained another time. The question is; With all the wonderful people I've met here, all the good this site as done for me...why is it a secret? Wouldn't I want everyone to be able to find the same joy I get outta being able to come here and blow off steam?! talk to and find friends?! answer mindless Q&A?!

Maybe it's be cause this is my little sanctuary. I don't let a lot of people into it here. I post what I want about what I want when I want to. Ok...I do take the occasional request, as it means someone likes my writing, but that's very rare. Here I can not only 'be me'...but show every part of me. No hiding something because it might upset my family/friends, or because I may be judged.....I can just let it all go. Sure, some people troll through here...but I realize it's the internet and just put a virtual bullet in them... *boom* and dead to me. That's much harder to do in 'real life'

Now I know this will never replace getting up and out there....but it gives me hope. Hope that there is good, kind, caring, funny, wonderful, open, beautiful people out there that are looking for the same things I am.

So I guess it's a double edged sword. Do I share with others my little place of mental peace that is EP? Or do I keep it quiet...allowing no one to see the 'private' thoughts i've put up; the emotions, friends, and feelings?
This is my private place though.....and I can't just give that up quite yet......
RisenFromAshes RisenFromAshes
36-40, M
Nov 27, 2012