Others Don't Understand How I Feel

It's a pretty bad idea actually. I've been doing it for years. Weird thing is that it can make you physically ill. It also becomes a habit which is extremely difficult to stop. I'm finally learning how to overcome it with the help of writing. My diary is my best friend. I know that it's easier for me to just feel nothing sometimes versus having to. Emotions create problems and those problems create the need to think. Thinking for some people, me being one of them, creates more problems because then they over think. So if you just bottle it all up you don't have to deal with it unless you explode. To make sure I won't, I write. But I don't talk (much) about my emotions. So many people can not understand.

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2 Responses Feb 17, 2010

Know exactly what you guys are saying. I usually spill my feelings, but I feel that hasn't gotten me anywhere. I would like to hear the logic of my friends, but I'm not sure how helpful that has been. I am going through this little issue and my friend kind of knows about it. I always tell her about my issues. So I'm wondering if I should share it with her now, perhaps her rational would help me. On the other hand I really find no point in spilling everything out. I feel it makes me weaker. Any advice?

You are only weak if you give into the fear of reveling truth. It all depends on the basis of the relationship you have with your friend. It's all up to you. I'm sure you'll make the best choice.

May I suggest some sort of documentary hobby such as; a diary, journal or blog. I use a dream journal and a small sketchbook, where I jot down dialogue, quotes, notes and draw cartoons. I've done this since winter 2009 and It has been very rewarding.

I found when i came on here, that i could write anything, my lifes problems and it was like i was giving them away. It freed my something brilliantly and i made friends along the way. People that really understand the experiences i have been through.<br />
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You are right, bottling things up can lead to illness so maybe you should keep writing. Even in the anonymous confessions if you dont feel you can in stories and then i am here if ever you want a friend to chat with.