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I Keep Myself Distracted So I Don't Feel

Maybe I'm Afraid To Feel Because I Don't Want To Get Hurt

By: eihy
Written on November 4th, 2010
It has been a year since I moved away from New York, and from time to time I really miss that city. I remembered working in Soho, I'm always swamped with work, I'm so beat at the end of the day, I pretty much had dinner, and surf the web for a few hours then I'm good to crash. I think the scariest thing of being where I am now is that, I'm no longer distracted by the overweilmingness of the city. I'm no longer occupied by the busy streets and the busy people, and now I'm left to face who I really am.

I want to have a relationship, I want to feel something, and for the most part I'm not sure how to do it. I've been dating and recently I found someone whom I really like, yet I'm not sure how I should deal with all these emotion. I'm very scared and I can sense that he's also distancing because of my intimacy issues. I just feel like now my only resort is to find something else to keep me occupied again. The past few weeks I've done everything I can to make sure I'm crazy busy, so I stay distracted and try not to think about another one of my failed relationship. but the reality is, I'm tired of finding excuses.
By: eihy
Age: 26-30 , Male
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  • manomanimready
    manomanimready

    You only live life once so go for it. Write him a letter, record him a letter. Ask him to meet you at a coffee shop. Be there, but call him and watch him talk to you. then go join him. Give him some sign.He's likley confused as you. He wants to make it work or he would already be gone.He feels the connection, but thats it. Its just a unnaturall feeling to not have the emotions and intimacy. It rarely works with out all the ingredients. Try and just tell him, that you are aware and respectful of his concerns and you just need some more time. But you have to work towards resolving your intimacy issues or your just wasting his time. Thats not fair for him. In essence you are just using him.

    Aug 11, 2011
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