My Oldest Cousin Told Me My Heart Was A Useless Organ And He Is Right

when you are as ugly as me... it is a useless organ ... this is a world were only the physically beautiful and violent survive


I have loved a lot of people and cared for many people...

I cared about Louise when her mother was ill, I cared about Louise when her husband left her

I cared about Brigette when her father died, I cared about Brigette most of the time... I thought she was more like a sister or a cousin then my own were to me

I cared about my cousin karen when her father was abusing her and her boyfriend dumped her.

I cared for my sister in-law when she lost the baby



I cared for people I had never even met... I used to say prayers for people who would never care about me in a living fit.

I even cried when my abuser died blaming myself that there was something I should have done to stop it all....

I should never have cared for these people!


NOT ONE OF THEM DESERVED MY LOVE.

no one deserves my love more than me....



and I don't even know how to show myself I love me anymore... I used to do it with losing weight or buying a nice outfit I could actually wear

I used to do it by treating others around me better than they treated me... being forgiving.


WHAT A WASTE OF TIME THAT WAS... THAT WAS THE BIGGEST KICK UP THE AR SE I EVER GOT APART FROM THE TIME ROD TRIED TO UP TURN THE CAR WITH ALL US KIDS IN IT....


I DONT LOVE ANYONE ANYMORE.... NOT EVEN MY MOTHER AND FATHER OR SISTER OR BROTHER...

I DON'T LOVE IDOLS I USED TO TREASURE WHEN THERE WAS NO ONE ELSE TO TURN TO ....

I FEEL LIKE DIANA LET ME DOWN ... SHE NEVER EVER REALLY CARED.... WHY SHOULD SHE?

WERNER NEVER REALLY MENT ONE HUG OR ONE KIND WORD HE EVER SAID TO ME... IT WAS ALL LIES


BUNNYPOETA WAS A LIAR .... HE WAS MAKING AN IDIOT OUT OF ME... TRYING TO TAKE ME DOWN LIKE ALL THE OTHERS



I WILL NEVER LOVE AGAIN... NOW KNOWING WHAT WILLIAM DID TO ME.... WHAT RICKY DID...


THEY LET KEN RAPE ME... IT WAS ALL A SET UP .... THE WHOLE THING ... THEY TREATED ME LIKE A DOG ...

SURE I MIGHT NOT BE A SUPER MODEL AND I KNOW THAT IS WHAT ALL THESE MEN WANT TODAY ... THEY DON'T WANT NICE GIRLS

THE NICE GIRLS COME LAST IN THIS WORLD ...I KNOW CUZ I AM NEVER ASKED TO DANCE BY THE CUTE GUYS ...

IM NEVER ASKED ON A DATE BY GUYS WHO HAVE SOMETHING GOING FOR THEM...

IM NEVER ALLOWED TO HAVE EQUAL GROUND UNLESS ITS ALL SH ITS VILLE...

IN NEVER ALLOWED HAVE THE NICE LEGAL JOB I STUDIED FOR... IM NEVER ALLOWED TO LOOK PRETTY

NICE GUYS NEVER ASK ME OUT ... NEVER EVEN LOOK AT ME... AND I NEED A KICK UP THE BUM ????? WHAT THE HELL FOR

TO ANNOUNCE TO WORLD I CAN MAST ER BATE 25 TIMES A DAY


NEVER EVER EXPECT ME TO CARE ABOUT YOU WILLIAM... YOUR A USER, A SCAB AND LIAR....

YOU SHOULD NOT EVEN BE IN THE CLASS YOUR IN... YOU DON'T DESERVE ONE CROWN JEWEL ON YOU

YOU PRETENDED TO LIKE ME TO TAKE ME DOWN... AND SO DID YOUR 6ITCH OF A MOTHER ... THE BIGGEST USER ON THE EARTH

ALL THE PEOPLE I KNEW WERE USERS... THEY TOOK MY FATHER DOWN, MY MUM DOWN, MY SISTER DOWN,

RICK WAS THE BIGGEST JERK NO ONE BUT A PHILIPEANO WOULD WANT...

BUGSY WAS A PEDO SCUM BAG.....

KEN WAS A DIRTY VIAL ANIMAL WHO SHOULD BE PUSHED INTO A CHOCK PEN LIKE THAT CHOOK BOY ... THAT POOR GUY SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN THERE RICK AND KEN AND WILLIAM SHOULD HAVE BEEN FORCED TO PECK THE GROUND LIKE A CHOOK FOR YEARS ...

http://tvnz.co.nz/view/news_world_story_skin/435093%3Fformat=htmlClayton

WHY DON'T YOU ALL LEARN TO BE HUMAN ...!!!!

I THINK HALF MY RELATIVES SHOULD BE LIVING LIKE THE CHOOK BOY ... SUE AND ELIZABETH ..... TIL THEY LEARN TO BE HUMAN INSTEAD OF ANIMALS.... !!!!!