Sigh

Well me and my ex boyfriend were together for 8 months , we broke up on our anniversary . I broke up with him out of anger and shortly tried to make amends . Soon after I began taking to one of his friends , stupid mistake I know . Once we got back to school a month later , I told him I wanted to be with him again but he had changed and rejected me because he wanted to be single and wasn't ready for a relationship . Soon after I discovered I was I was pregnant but he denied it being his although it was . He never involved himself in my emotions the procedure anything but yet I still loved him . He wanted to work things out w. me but showed little effort . One day he just all around stopped talking to me . Told my friend " he didn't want to be hurt by me again " he ignored me for 2 months until my birthday he told me happy birthday which I appreciated but drama began again and we didn't speak for another 2 months until his birthday . He was overly appreciative that I actually told him hbd . After that we see and hug everyday we saw one another . Prom came Around and I told him to save me his last dance and he did . We slow danced , my friend told me he was smiling hard the entire time and kissed . After this things have gone back to normal & idk how he feels about me . I wanna tell him I still love him but I fear being rejected .