My Five Year Old Has Bipolar Disorder and He Got It From Me

I was misdiagnosed with several different emotial and behaviorial disorders by the time I was 17. I gave up on medical science at around that time. however when I was 20 I gave birth to my son and I knew that i wanted to be perfect for him. His father had a drug problem and was not capable of getting it togeather so the responsibility of rested completely on my shoulders. I took it seriously. I went back to my psyciatrist and tried a new medication for bipolar disorded abilify.

My son was a difficult child, and I don't just mean he was difficult for me. I have my BA in human development with an emphisis in early childhood and I had been working with infants and young children for two years when I had my son. He didn't sleep he was impossible to sooth and he was very sensitive to external stimuli.

he got older but things didn't get any easier. He couldn't function in group learning situations nor could he handle seperation from me. 

I asked his preschool teacher her opinions when he was three. She said that it seemed like there was a problem. But the feild observer who came out said he was fine, normal, just a little sensitve, insecure and very active. his problems in school were the fault of inconsistant and overly permissive parenting. I pulled him out of that school thinking that maybe a different  type of environment , maybe one with less structure and small group sizes would make a difference.

well a year later his teacher at his new school came to me with the same concerns that the first teacher and I had. This time we called out an inclusion specialist and a therapist. This is when they told me that he has pediatcric on set bipolar disorder. they now believe that it is genetic. So essentially I gave my son his problems. He would probably have the same troubles that had plagued me and had nearly ruined my life. I probably would have killed myself soon if I hadn't had my son and been forced to get it togeather for someone more important than myself. And yet I passed on to him the very problem that put me in such a dark place.

Now I don't know how to feel or what to think or what to do.

fallingfromgrace fallingfromgrace
22-25, F
1 Response Jul 4, 2008

Look at what a great Mom you are! Can you think of anyone better to help your Son through his journey then you. You are the expert. You have been there done that. Remember, bipolar is not who your Son is. Look how successful you are! Your support and advocacy for him will assure he has as many advantages as possible. Just remember that you need to take care of yourself and get the support you need as well. My Son is bipolar and I know what a challenge you have ahead of you. But you have so much knowledge and understanding that I did not have, it took me years to learn. My Son is an amazing person and was such a gift to me and everyone around him. Yes and real pain some days too. But then aren't we all. Bless you for caring so much for your Son.