I Yam What I Yam
Bipolar disorder......Sometimes, I think it's all a bunch of malarky! I mean, I've done a little studying of physics....we are ALL dual in nature...all the way down to our atomic and nuclear structure!! Atoms don't fall apart because they are made up of opposing forces. It is the actual opposition of those forces that keeps the atom together! Think about that! Think about the fact that the ONLY thing that makes light possible is the infinite transformation of electric waves to magnetic waves. One creates the other and light would NOT exist without both. Think about how magnetism works. Opposites. Everywhere we look, no matter how deep and probing the microscope, or how powerful the telescope, there are opposites holding stuff together! AND! No matter how much we "discover" or "learn," all scientific roads (essentially) have the same ending: MYSTERY! Einstein, himself even said as much. He was such a friggin GENIUS because he understood that, not because his giant shoulders support the scientific world with his theories on special and general relativity! Shakespeare understood it, too. That's why all of his plays mirrored their real counterparts (people and situations.) You could put all of Shakespeare's plays together and they would all tell one, neverending story...together.
Anyway, I don't think I'm REALLY that different than everyone else! We all exist because of opposite poles. I just think I'm more intense....I don't mind being on both poles, at the same time. I just don't ignore that I am both. I just don't try to FORCE myself to be one or the other.
I just am.