I Was Only 6 Years Old

first day of school and he hit me in the head with a hard cricket ball.


well, once again it just affected my self worth wondering why guys always picked and bullied me

I put it down to the fact that I was ugly and had red hair.


anyway that event made me forever fearful of young teen guys... all through my youth I feared them...

believing they would all abuse me like that ... like him and like Bugsy.


that was all part of the plan .... to keep me down and poverty worn and stop men even looking at young men

and it worked...!!!!

as if molesting from an dirty old bugger wasn't enough!!!!!!